I have been fairly silent on the blog recently, mainly because I have no words to explain what I have been feeling. I am not sure that what I have been feeling can be understood unless you have stood in my place. I guess in a way I feel lost. I am not sure the direction God is taking my life. I am not sure what His purpose for me is. I feel like He is asking me to give up some of my dreams and just rest in Him right now.
It is hard to give up my dreams -- both big and small, but I know that the best thing is for me to be listening to His voice. I know that His ways are better than my ways, it is just not always easy to live that out. It is not always easy to die to self and live to glorify Him. But... I will. I will continue to press on. I will continue to seek God's will for my life and the lives of my children. I will continue to move forward, keeping my eyes on Jesus.
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Good morning friend,
Tears filled my eyes as I was reading your post - I felt as though I was reading my own words. And, like you, I have felt pretty silent lately.
I have really felt God calling me - asking me to give up this and to give up that..and at times I find myself wanting to resist because I feel like I have already lost so much..selfish I know - but it's the honest truth. It's so hard for me to share my feelings right now because I feel like nobody else is experiencing any of this - in a strange way as I read your words I felt "she gets it - she understands". Obiviously I don't exactly what God is asking you to give up - but please know that you are not the only one feeling this way right now. And really if EVERYONE would truly stop and listen to God about what HE wants in their lives - they too would probably find areas that God would ask them to change...
I am sure you are hurting - as the pain we feel during grief never truly escapes from us - so if you feel like talking, crying, sharing, praying, etc please let me know...Until then I will be praying for you and your beautiful little ones.
Love and hugs dear friend.
Kelly
God is working in you and you are not fighting it, as hard as it may be He has a purpose. There are good times and bad, but the bad times make the good times something we really appreciate! Praying for you.
I know what you mean. I feel God has been asking me to also give up my dreams and just rest in Him as well. It's been difficult. But knowing I'm not alone in this makes me realize that God is working and His plans are in motion. :)
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