- grilling out -- he was the "grill master" in the house
- bedtime for Lily and Wyatt
- dinner time
- the t.v. show "Duel" (he like it; I hated it)
- thunderstorms
- crabby kids
- making the coffee for the morning
- insurance frustrations
- not being able to call him up and tell him something small and stupid
I have also been missing him a lot as I think about the upcoming week. Next week Saturday will be/would have been our 5 year anniversary. It also follows a holiday that Ryan loved, 4th of July (all but one year of our marriage Ryan was in the hospital).
I am not looking forward to this whole year of firsts, but it just seems like a lot of the really hard ones are coming at the beginning. I am not sure if any of them will be easy...Christmas, birthdays...ughh. I will continue to rely on God as my only source of comfort and strength. I will continue to enjoy Lily and Wyatt as both a great distraction and a great reminder of Ryan.
3 comments:
Those kids are such a beautiful reminder of Ryan. :) I'm sure the firsts are so difficult, continue to put your hope in Him!
I like the picture on the top...I've been trying (more like failing) to change my blog for the past few days. I may "steal" your idea.
Rest in Him today! Hold on to those memories and think of them often! I love you!
hugs. i hope the insurance goes well, sending good thoughts to you.
Not the same thing but, my mother in law passed away and my husband it having a very hard with all those "firsts". I'll be thinking of you.
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