Day 20

I must admit that as Thanksgiving has drawn closer it has been harder for me to find things to be thankful for. It is not that I don't see the blessings in my life, it is just the fact that there is a huge hole in my heart. I miss Ryan and all that he brought into my life: his laughter, his patience, his love, his generosity, his loyalty, his positive attitude, his perseverance. Tomorrow will be a tough day. I will be surrounded by people who love me, but the person I most desire to be with will be missing.

But tonight I am thankful for the memories that are in my heart. Although Ryan is no longer with me, I have so many memories of our life together. They make me smile and they make me cry, but they are a treasure that I am thankful to have. I look forward to passing them on to Lily and Wyatt.

Over the next couple of weeks, I will try and share some of our Christmas stories and traditions. I would LOVE for those of you who knew Ryan to share stories with me as well. They will be a treasure to both the kids and me. Feel free to email them to me (click on my profile) if you would like.

Thanks for your continued thoughts and prayers for us. You are all a huge blessing to me!